Hello,
My name is Wendy,im from the pittsburgh pa area.i have 1 son,age 16,his father died when he was 1 yr old,he chose to commit suicide.(easy way out).when i recovered from that blow and started dating again,that man also chose to take the easy way out and put a bullet in his head all because his ex wife wanted child support.i stopped dating for years and tried raising my son on my own,it was hard,my son despertly wanted a father and i wanted a male role model for him but since i always seemed to pick the depressed guys,i always blamed myself,until i got councling,then realized it wasnt me,it was the men i chose.i gave up,went on with my life for yrs,then i met and fell head over hills for a younger man who talked me into moving in with him 2 hrs away,my son loved him,my son was so happy he had a father figure,i gave up a decent job,all my furniture,we all seemed so happy,i got a job,made sure dinner was done everyday,cleaned,walked the dogs,fed them,watched his kids,his kids even called me mom,they loved us,i even took his kids to councling every week because there real mother didnt want them,everything was great until my bank account went dry,then he tossed us out into the street with just the clothes on our backs,no warning,no money,no car,no place to live,so we had to start all over from scratch,i picked myself and my son up,wiped us off,no man was ever going to keep us down,i kept my job,the mayor ,when he heard me beg the police for our clothes back,(which i never got them back)offered to help by calling someone and getting us an apt,NEVER DATED AGAIN,we ended up in that area for 5 LONG years,the school forced me to have my son evaluated for ADHD,the Dr placed him on straterra,shortly after,my son started getting sick,took him to dr,the dr said he's ok,couple days later my son started complaining he couldnt walk to school which was only 1 block away up a slope,when the hospital done x-rays,within 10 minutes,they life flighted my son to childrens hospital,my son had congested heart failure,he was dignoised w/dilated cardiomyopothy,i was in shock,my 13 yr old was a healthy boy,he didnt have heart problems,turns out,this strattera he took was a new drug,theyre finding more and more bad things about it everyday,but that dont change the fact that my son might need a heart transplant from it now,my son will never be ok,he can never play competitive sports,no gym class,no running,the make a wish foundation sent my son & i to maui hawaii ,had awsome time flying over the volcanos in helecoptor,going under the ocean in sumberine,was quiet beautiful,my son wants to go back and live there...not me,when we returned home from hawaii,we both ended up in the hospital for pnamonia for a week each. a few months later,he fell off his computer chair and broke his arm,elbow,upper arm,needed surgery but they couldnt do it for 4 days because my son had to get the coumiden out of his system,3 plates,2 rods,11 screws and wire (and 3 yrs later it still not healed,has big hole in elbow that wont heal)so anyways,we moved back to the pittsburgh area to be closer to the hospital,i found a job,3 months later,was laid off,found another right away,they wouldnt work around my sons schedule,he needs his blood checked every 2 weeks and heart center every month,my son health is my no.1 priority,i had no choice but to quit my job,my son is taking 7 different medicines 4 times a day,i have to be there to make sure his blood pressure doesnt drop to low,wish i could find a job thats steady daylight,that would help me out tremendously, i had to find a house that didnt have alot of steps,my son was home schooled,but this year i put him in reg school and he made honor roll,my son is a wiz w/making web pages,im very proud of him,he taught himself all about web designs and stuff.he also likes to chat with his old friends online,his best friend(14 yrs old) online was just in a wreck and died,i feel so badly for his family,but god must of needed an angel,my sons upset with me right now because i couldnt take him to the funeral(my car wouldnt made it up that mountain,i only use it when i have to because its blowing white smoke everywhere)im doing my best right now to keep sane,im basicly staying in denial with my sons condition because if i really thought about it all,id lose my mind,so its best i stay in denial,anywaysssss...... that is my life,a bunch of hard knocks but i still smile because i have my son by my side.and when i feel down,i go and read others stories,theres always someone worse off then me,so i count my blessings ,sorry for boring whoever is reading this,but thats my life,god bless everyone
